Monday, May 29, 2017

A Poem I Found Among my Papers---Is it mine or Someone Else's?

Going through 40 years of papers I found this poem draft  in my handwriting  without a date or author.....Some of the syntax seems like mine, in other places not so. Generally, I do not copy out poems by others. On occasion I've found poem fragments without recollection of writing them down which seem strangely unfamiliar while familiar too. If the following work is NOT by me, my apology. In this instance not so interested in the weak craft with excessive use of passive verb tenses and adverbs but more in the content. So here it is:

FOUND DRAFT--

I've not been troubled much
by self-definition, 
leaving such works---
when all was said and done---
to others less inclined
to live, it seems to me, 
but called mysteriously,
to the judgement seat.
Spread your nets fastidiously,
catch a fish or two, 
but where's the sea?
Life's a tangle, isn't it
of pointed fingers?
Just where they point
escapes me!
Live in the web,
if you insist, I'll take
the spaces in between.
Quarrel how the  fountain's 
to be shaped,
I'm one with the water
or I'm nothing, I'll agree,
but shapely, nonetheless
Zero has its elegance
and so do lips
but what's said once
is never said again
I live in the once 
I die in the twice again.

So here's my first revision  dated Memorial Day, May 28, 2017 on a rainy afternoon. Will let it sit awhile. 

I'm not troubled much
by self-definition, 
leaving such work---
to others less inclined
to live in mystery.
Spread your nets fastidiously,
catch a fish or two, 
but where's the sea?
Life's a tangle, isn't it
of pointed fingers?
Just where they point
escapes me!
Live in the web,
if you insist, I'll take
the spaces in between.
Quarrel how the fountain's 
shaped, I'm one with the water
or I'm nothing,
Zero has its elegance
and so do lips
but what's said once
is never said again
I live in the once 

I die in the twice again.



Saturday, May 13, 2017

I Have Eaten

Fresh baked bread to die for, better than sex, when hungry
Grandma’s Icebox chocolate pudding in green dishes
Holiday House ice cream sodas and Shirley Temples in Malibu
My mother’s zucchini casserole and lentil salads when the cupboards were bare
My father’s left-over lamb roast cooked in white beans
I have eaten cherry pie at Knox Berry Farm
Babushka’s perrogi cross country on AM Track in 1965
I ate the crisp wafers of the body of Christ numerous times

Verandah’s crepes
Richard Wizansky’s ginger meatballs
Catherine Mariott’s Noodles High
Joan Marrs’ pickled cauliflower
Ellen Snyder's grape leaves
Mimi's Bueberry Bomb
Peter Gould's Key Lime pie
Usual fare at Packers Corner Farm

Remember well those cannolis from the North End
Miss Hornbeak's candied orange and grapefruit peals
Susan Nagelson's french bread while at Smith

Hungarian Goulash with R.D. Laing on 15th Street when he arrived two weeks early
Drank Vanilla shakes in Boulder with Harry Smith whose teeth were rotten
Poached salmon I made for William Burroughs and Company on his birthday
That strange dinner party of celestial disrupt when Philip Whalen upset 
    the poet's table at Anne Waldman's as his chair tipped over setting in slow 
       motion the bottle of wine whose content landed in the lap 
          of esteemed Japanese scholar.........

Borscht at Christine’s with Allen Ginsberg on First Avenue
    and late breakfast in his kitchen when I delivered mail
Homemade ravioli from Houston Street with John Waldman 
Noodle soup with Gina on first Avenue after work
Yanny's stir fried greens, Eliot's vegan fare

These are memorable 
and on and on

Dim Sum with Chogyam Trungpa in his living  room  with Christian contemplatives 
Made Momos with the Sakyong, now Mipham Rinpoche, at '86 seminary
Wheat grass walking with Gelek Rinpoche in Manhattan
Martha's Rice and Beans with the Vajra Regent
Greens with Trogawa Rinpoche and Khenpo Brothers in John Giorno's Bunker
I've eaten killer Big Macs with Tsultrim Allione
     on road trip with dakinis 
Sushi with Chogyal Namkha Norbu and home cooked meals
   in Portland and Cambridge 

A decade of residency meals with NEC poets and disgruntled faculty

I'm more than happy to forget

Now I eat through heaps of garbage
Psychic dross
Most friends dead 

Do Chod-- cook for others
I'm fulfilled
Now I eat air, drink irridescent light 
My head bald with Chemo
Preparing for what’s next


Jacqueline Gens
Shelburne Falls, MA


An old draft revised on May 12, 2017 
one sleepless night at 1:30 AM 
and still tinkering

Revised again May 28, 2017

Thursday, February 23, 2017

My Annual Losar Poem : Year of the Fire Rooster/Bird


Original art by Ingmar Pema Dechen, 2017


Year of the Fire Rooster/Bird

Ever awake among the slumbering
Lively harbinger of whatever awaits
Each day no task too daunting
For just as the sun rises
You’re always ready for any occasion
Reliable, precise, and to the point
No poison too toxic nor lethal
For that bright display which cheers us on
O great Fire Bird who arises from ashes
To transport us beyond our limits
In shining iridescence to meet our purpose
We welcome your daily summons
Into the fray at day’s break

Jacqueline Gens
Tsegyalgar East
Dakini Day, 2.21.17



Please credit Jacqueline and Ingmar if you you forward their image and poem. They are currently collaborating on rendering all sixty animal/element combinations into illustrated/poems. To read more about this project called "The Mansion of Elements" visit here.  There you will also find poems from 2007 to the present. 

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Remembering Gelek Rimpoche (1939-2017)


A tender moment with Philip Glass, Gelek Rimpoche and Allen, 1989


Today,  I learned of Gelek Rimpoche's passing, a sad event for his many students and people whose lives he touched. Born in 1939, Gelek Rimpoche was one of the last of his generation to be educated traditionally--a rigorous training from early childhood. He proved an effective Teacher to Americans having many prominent students such as Allen Ginsberg, Philip Glass, Richard Gere, and others. 

One day in 1989 when I had begun to work in the office of Allen Ginsberg, I remember well the first time I met Rimpoche and heard his unique voice (he favored the Rimpoche spelling as opposed to the more common Rinpoche) via a phone call he made asking to speak with Allen who was not in his office. He wanted to ask If Allen could be on his board of Jewel Heart or something official like that. I remember listing to him Allen's other dharma obligations. In any case,  he was quite engaging with very good English. Later I traveled a number of times with Allen to Ann Arbor, MI where Rimpoche at that time  gave weekly teachings in a small Gonpa above his garage. He was a marvelous master of Tsongkhapa's lineage and the lam rim  teachings.    Although,  I felt more drawn to the Dzogchen teaching, at the time, I really respected his methods and to this day employ his analytical meditation technique--which is extremely important as a base for one's understanding of the so called "nature of mind."



Gelek Rimpoche and Allen had a lot of fun. Often when Gelek Rimpoche stayed with Allen in his rather humble six floor walk-up apartment on East 12th Street, I would see them together while delivering Allen's mail. Gelek Rimpoche was especially fond of telling many ribald tales about the sexual practices of monks in Tibet which  Allen found amusing. They also shared a keen love of the daily news--Allen, the NYTimes and Gelek Rimpoche, CNN. 
I remember during the first Iraq war we were all watching George Bush Senior on CNN and Gelek Rimpoche saying that he (George Bush senior) had no idea of the karmic implications of his policies for America. 

My sincere regards to all of Gelek Rimpoche's many fine students who are among the most kind and generous dharma practitioners in America. The apple, as they say, does not fall far from the tree. To learn more about Gelek Rimpoche's teachings and Jewel Heart visit:


Jacqueline Gens and Gelek Rimpoche at Allen's kitchen table--
photo by Allen Ginsberg circa early 1990.s


Jacqueline Gens
February 15, 2017

*Photo taken with Allen Ginsberg's camera in Ann Arbor, MI 1989 by Gloria Boyajian

On Lion's Roar  you can read a series of articles by Gelek Rimpoche



Sunday, February 05, 2017

Join us for a Presentation of our HATCH Grant Conway Rags to Paper on February 11, 2017

Please join us for a celebration and presentations by HATCH grant Recipients




WHERE: Buckland Community Center on Main Street in Shelburne Falls, MA
DATE AND TIME: February 11, 2017, 5:30-7:00 PM
Refreshments provided, FREE but 5.00 donation requested
                                                                                                 
Papermaking is an ancient tradition that is an important base for the evolution of cultures world-wide. Before the advent of modern papermaking from trees, paper was made from natural fibers or rags.

As part of the upcoming Summer 2017 Town of Conway Aniversary, Tsegyalgar East will participate in the 250th Anniversary for the town of Conway in a number of events through Kahndroling Paper Cooeprative, Khaita Dance and Shang Shung Institute. For a full list of these events visit, here. 

Khandroling Paper Cooperative will give a public presentation on February 11, 2017 of its Conway Rags to Paper Project for which it received grants from the Greater Shelburne Falls Business Association and Massachusetts Cultural Council. 



    
The Conway Rags to Paper Project will collect, process, and beat in our Hollander beater cotton rags from Conway residents to create pulp which will then be used in making handmade paper specifically for the 250th anniversary of Conway. This paper will become the base to contain writing by participants and artist members related to the history, stories and personal connection to the town of Conway, which will then be mounted in a variety of formats (ex: scrolls, mural, and folding books,) using various printing methods (stamping, stencil, calligraphy, printing) for exhibition during the three-day anniversary.

In our presentation we will bring examples of our handmade paper and text. Please join us for a fun and informative event!


  


               
















Saturday, February 04, 2017

Walking the Plank of Uncertainty

I stepped from Plank to Plank 
A slow and cautious way 
The stars about my Head I felt 
About my Feet the Sea 
                                                      -Emily Dickinson 















Friday, February 03, 2017

Our Next Poetrymind Meditation and Poetry Meeting on February 4, 2017


Poetrymind monthly writing group participants meditating in the Shelburne Falls Shambhala shrine room


For the past two months in December and January we met at our local co-op and the Shambhala Center when available. In January we spent considerable time in writing exercises following our usual meditation period. I came across this poem by David Budville
in "The Sun Magazine" (February 2017, p.15) which seemed topical.

The Emperor
His bullies
And henchmen
Terrorize the world
Every day

Which is why
Every day

We need

A little poem of kindness

A small song of peace

A brief moment of joy


Poets are responding big time to the present climate of dissent. Here is Huffington Post's list of 18 Compassionate Poems to help You Weather Uncertain Times --just a taste of engaged writers in response online. 


Monday, January 02, 2017

My Annual Losar Poem in the works for February 27-March 1, 2017 Tibetan New Year




A preview of our annual Losar poem/image collaboration for 2017 
with original painting by Ingmar Pema Dechen, a visionary artist of
the Dzogchen Community and member of the Khandroling Paper Cooperative.
Visit some of her art here online at:

the annual Losar poem is currently in progress.........